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Fan – “Sir, you are
great. You are a big inspiration for people like me”
Writer – “Oh
Thanks. So, which book of mine do you like in particular?”
Fan – “You are a wonderful personality. I adore you
very much”
Writer – “Thank
you, Thank you, which of my writings is your favorite?”
Fan – “Can there be
such a talented writer as you? Impossible! I worship you!”
Writer –
"Hmm... Have you read any of my books?"
Fan – "You received
Jnana Peetha award, you were honored with Padma Bhushan, your glory has spread
far and wide"
Writer – (to
himself) “Seems to be a madcap, I better keep quiet”
What do you call
such a person? A fan? Well, he seems to be a lunatic. But what if I say most of
us do this all the time, if not all of us? Don’t you believe? Hmm, I guessed
so…
Devotee – “Krishna
you are great, I love you”
Common Sense – “Ok
good. What teaching of Krishna do you like in particular?”
Devotee – “Oh Sri
Krishna, Govinda, Gopala, I am your great devotee”
Common Sense –
“Devotee? Then you must be knowing what Krishna taught. Have you tried to
follow anything in your life?”
Devotee – “Oh
Murari, Madhusudana, I surrender to you”
Common Sense –
“Dear Sir, ok, I got your point. I am asking have you read anything from his
teachings? At least Bhagavadgita?”
Devotee – “Oh
Giridhari, Mukunda, you tamed Kaalinga, you lifted a mountain on your little
finger, can there be anyone as great as you?”
Common Sense – “I
better keep quiet, you seem to be deaf”
Looks familiar now?
Who is this self-proclaimed devotee trying to fool? Himself or Krishna?
Probably neither. He is perhaps trying to make an impression with the onlookers
so that they can praise his ‘great devotion’.
But when I did
this, luckily for me, my common sense rose in rage and questioned me:
“Oh self proclaimed
great devotee of Sri Krishna, if you love him so much, then have you tried to
know what Krishna wants to tell you? Why are you going on jabbering, not stopping
to listen to his words? Why are you going on pouring water, milk, honey on him
but least care for his words? How would you feel suppose your wife or son does
the same to you? How would you feel if they do not listen to a single thing
that you say but want to give you a bath and serve you? Is that what you want
in the name of love and respect? A bath? Of course, no problem is receiving
service from your wife, but if she doesn’t care for any of your words, will you
be pleased with any of her service? What is primary? Listen to you or give you
a bath? Will that service not become a nuisance? Similarly, perform worship,
perform all the rituals, no problem, but why have you forgotten the primary and
necessary thing? Your devotion and rituals are dummy until you really care to
listen to him. Whether Krishna was a real person or not is not a concern at the
moment. In either case, Bhagavadgita is real and is still available for you to
read.”
I was taken aback.
I recovered and said “I do have Bhagavadgita at home”, but only to get further
bashed up by my common sense:
“Is this book meant
to be kept in the altar so that it gets discolored with yellow and red water?
Book is meant to be read or worshipped? If you do both, worship and read, I can
accept. But only worship? Are you a crackpot?”
Now, I began seeing
my stupidity. But ego doesn’t want to give up. I said “I have read a little…”
“Oh, have you now?
Very good. And after that have you made at least one teaching of the Gita as
your own by following it in your life?”
I had no reply and
kept silent in shame.
“Wonderful. So, you
think Krishna preached Bhagavadgita so that one day someone like you can mug it
up and demonstrate your memory power? Or print it in a book and put red, yellow
water on it? Is that what you think Krishna had in mind?”
Now I gathered all
the guts left in me and put forth my final argument “It is difficult to
understand, very abstract…”
“Ahhh, say that.
Accept the truth. Do not try to hide your inability with dummy worship and
rituals. You did not understand the Gita because you never asked me, your
common sense. You were busy with your great intellectual abilities and sharp
brain which you are always proud of. It only made you pompous. And when the
intellect failed to understand some new concept, it did not let you honestly
accept its failure. Instead, it suggested you to intelligently conceal its
inability under the roof of worship and rituals. Attending classes regularly is
good but not sufficient to grasp the subject, necessary thing is the zeal to
learn the subject. Similarly, rituals are good but they alone are not
sufficient for your growth. Mere attendance will do no good to pass the
subject. Dummy faith will not survive for long. It is bound to fall. Until me,
your common sense does not agree with you, you cannot carry on with it for
long. And when blind faith fails, you go to the other extreme – blind
disbelief. You will then conceal the failure of the intellect in the name of
being scientific. ‘It doesn’t exist
because I cannot prove it in the laboratory’. Great scientist of the 21st
century! I do not know how many times I have to tell you – follow the middle
path, strike a balance. Are there only two options always? White and Black?
Either blind faith or extremely logical? No other color in between? Ask me,
your common sense, who is always there but crushed mercilessly, and I shall
tell you. Get rid of the fake mask of ego, and accept its failure honestly to
yourself. Surrender, and then I shall rise, your common sense.”
यदा यदा हि धर्मस्य ग्लानिर्भवति भारत ।
अभ्युत्थानमधर्मस्य तदात्मानं सृजाम्यहम् ॥४.७॥
परित्राणाय साधूनां विनाशाय च दुष्कृताम् ।
धर्मसंस्थापनार्थाय सम्भवामि युगे युगे ॥४.८॥
“Whenever there is
a deterioration of Dharma – balance, and whenever there is an increase in
Adharma – imbalance due to inclination to extremes, I shall rise in you! To
kill all that is extreme and aggressive, to protect all that is moderate and
rational, and to bring a balance, I shall rise again and again - 4.7-4.8”
“Yes, Krishna is
nothing but me, your common sense, who is always within you, the charioteer and
guide of the otherwise confused Arjuna, Nara, Man, ego! Nara, who at one point
boasts of his valor, and the next moment trembles in depression on the
battlefield – always in extremes!”
And this left me
dumbfounded! “You were always in me? And I was searching for you in the
temples?”. Eyes were moist, hands were numb and feet were frozen. I, the ego,
for the first time honestly bowed down and said, “I surrender, please guide me
Krishna!”
And when I opened
Bhagavadgita, the book, as if it knew what I had in my mind, opened at a page
that read:
...शिष्यस्तेऽहं शाधि मां त्वां प्रपन्नम् ॥२.७॥
"...I
am your disciple, I surrender, guide me - 2.7"
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